I miss writing. Every time I try to start up again I feel guilt. But only when I'm in a relationship. Lots of times I don't even feel like writing when I'm in a relationship, but how can I avoid it if I'm in one that's going to last? I feel it's too much to ask to keep my writing private. But we are all allowed our private thoughts, it's just that I feel better if I've written them down. That doesn't mean it should be available to everyone, does it? Or does it? If I'm willing to make a hard copy aren't I just making the choice to somehow, some time, be compromised with it? I don't know. All I know is this feeling of deliciousness that is bubbling up inside of me with every, single, keystroke. It feels like I'm breathing again.
